Jayson: I don't think that a lot of people that I've talked to have told me anything similar about their trauma. Most people I talk to tell me that they were unable to write sentences or read or focus because of the acute nature of what they were living through. I don't know why I was able to, but I paid attention to the fact that I was, even through everything. I made it a bit of a practice. Six months later, I had a lot of writing. It was all for me, really. It was all just me making sense of my new existence and reconciling with all the nasty, ugly emotions that come up when you're grieving. Then when Stacy got pregnant, I looked at what I had. It just clicked into my brain. I was actually writing something for my son, and if not explicitly for him, then for myself as I prepared to be someone else's father. For me, part of that became, I have to show this to someone else. This can't just be a private journal for me anymore. I had a real need to share it somehow, and so it started to become a book, at least in my brain. I continued writing. I didn't change anything I was doing. Every day, I wrote about what I felt. As I did, I kind of, in the back of my mind, was thinking a little differently about where this journey was going and why I was taking the time to do it.